Waiting.

I want results.
I want them now.
But I can’t.
Not yet.

I have to wait.

I have a “Meeting” this afternoon to determine a “situation.”

Re-interviewing for my job.

Ridiculous.

If I would have done better I would not have to be here now.
If only I would have done this…
If only I would have done that…

If only…
If only…
If only…

If….

But that is in the past.

Well…

A Learning Lesson.

Do better the first time.
No complacency.
Just do the work and get it done!
Get it done right.
Get it done right the first time.
JUST DO IT RIGHT!

It is ok to try!
It is ok to put in the effort!
It is ok to work hard!
It is ok to BE GREAT!

Runner

I want to do a runner.
Just get up and leave.
Peace out!
GFTO!
See you later!
Ciao!
Goodbye!
Later!
Hasta la vista baby!

What will that solve?

More problems will be wherever I go.

Plus, I will bring all the same problems with me.

I will have to stick it out.

and NOT RUN.

And that is hard to do.

I Backed Down.

I was afraid today.
I let it affect my decisions and my actions.
I shrunk.
I backed away.
I was full of fear.

I did not attack.
I did not conquer.
I was a coward.

I ran away.

Like a coward.

I Backed Down.

And it hurts.

But next time I won’t back down.
No.
I won’t back down.

Next time.
Next time.
Next time.

I don’t even know.

Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.

It is all ok.

Criticism.
Contempt.
Yelling.
Dislike.
Disrespect.
Condemnation.
Failure.
Worthless.
Screaming.
Yelling.
LOUD Yelling!
ARGHHHHH.
Unsatisfactory.
Disapproval.

“WHY DID YOU DO THAT?”

So what?

So what if no one likes you?

“What in God’s name are you doing?”

So what?

So what if everyone yells at you?

“Do you even know how to do anything right?”

So what?

So what if I get yelled at for everything I am trying to do?

I did the best I could do.
And that is all I can do.
Next time it WILL be better!

Just let it go!
Move on.

 Be YOU!