Easily Distracted.
Clicking here.
Clicking there.
Back over here.
Now over there.
Oh, what’s this?
Oh, nothing.

Scroll.
Scroll.
Scroll.

I can’t get my mind away.

Close the freaking window

And…

JUST TURN IT OFF!

Stormy day.

Staying inside.

Time to get it done!

Worried?

Why?

Fear.
It is all Fear
Lack of Focus.
Running around.
Crazy in my head.

Just focus at the task at hand.

Slow the Breath down.
Slow the Breath down.
SLOW THE BREATH DOWN.

Through the nose.

Calm it down.
Calm it down.
Calm it down.

Everything will be ok.
It is all good.
Everything will be ok.

It is all the same!
Nothing changes.
Same Themes.
All the same writing.
Judgement.
Self Judgement.
Same Themes.
Same Structures.
Same Writings!
All the SAME!
What do I care?
So what?
This is helping me.
And if it helps you, then even better!
Time to LIVE!

People are GENUINE weirdos.

So, What is your excuse to life YOUR LIFE?

People are weird and do weird stuff.

So, What is your excuse to life YOUR LIFE?

There is room for YOU!

BE YOU!

I want results.
I want them now.
But I can’t.
Not yet.

I have to wait.

I have a “Meeting” this afternoon to determine a “situation.”

Re-interviewing for my job.

Ridiculous.

If I would have done better I would not have to be here now.
If only I would have done this…
If only I would have done that…

If only…
If only…
If only…

If….

But that is in the past.

Well…

A Learning Lesson.

Do better the first time.
No complacency.
Just do the work and get it done!
Get it done right.
Get it done right the first time.
JUST DO IT RIGHT!

It is ok to try!
It is ok to put in the effort!
It is ok to work hard!
It is ok to BE GREAT!

I want to do a runner.
Just get up and leave.
Peace out!
GFTO!
See you later!
Ciao!
Goodbye!
Later!
Hasta la vista baby!

What will that solve?

More problems will be wherever I go.

Plus, I will bring all the same problems with me.

I will have to stick it out.

and NOT RUN.

And that is hard to do.

Angry.
Fearful.
Resentful.
Stress.
Worried.
Scared.
Bitter.
Annoyed.
Wired.
Tired.

Tired.

That’s it.
I am tired.
I am just tired.

I just want a nap.
But I can’t nap.

No escapism.

I need to GET OUT.
Get out and LIVE!

Emotions.
Emotions building up.
I can’t take this anymore!

I NEED HELP!

But I can’t say that!

That would be admitting defeat.

Too hard to say…

I Need Help.

Nope.

Try again.
Try again.
Try again.

All on my own effort.

SMASH!
BAM!

Smash my head against a wall.

It’s a wake up call.

OK….

I need help.

I was afraid today.
I let it affect my decisions and my actions.
I shrunk.
I backed away.
I was full of fear.

I did not attack.
I did not conquer.
I was a coward.

I ran away.

Like a coward.

I Backed Down.

And it hurts.

But next time I won’t back down.
No.
I won’t back down.

Next time.
Next time.
Next time.