All posts by Alpha Bravo

NO ONE CARES!

No one cares!
No one cares!
No ONE CARES!

No one cares about me!

Not is a depressive, self-pity way.

No, not at all!

No, it is in a freeing way!!

It is freeing that no one cares!

Like, no one actually cares!

Everyone is too worried about THEM!

I heard something good: ” It is not self-conscious, but OTHER conscious that limits us”.

So, I am too worried about others

And not worried about myself.

Therefore, now….

Focus on YOU!
You MATTER!
You DO YOU!

Because that is all YOU can Do!

BE YOU!

Barriers.

Too much worry!

What does it matter?

What does it all even matter?

Why try?

Does it even matter?

But, not wondering in a depressed way.

More in a freeing way!

What does it matter?
What does it matter?
What does it matter?

I mean, what is the worst that can happen?

What is the worst that can happen?

That is freeing!

Live Free!

Freedom!
Freedom!
Freedom!

No hindrances.

Break down the walls.

Live Free!
No Barriers!
Live Free!

Take it Easy!

Trying to do too many things.

I got good advice from a colleague:

“Bro, TAKE IT EASY MAN!”

Just take it easy!

Yes, That’s it!

Take it easy man!

But why is it so hard to just take it easy?

Everything will work out.

In its own way.

Just stop controlling.

But that is hard.

Take it easy!

Why am I trying to control?

IT WILL BE OK!

The Mood.

Not in the mood to write.

I have a headache.
It hurts right behind my eyes.
Like a hammer hit to my head.

Also, feeling sick.

Congestion.
Stuffiness.
Sinus aches.
Body aches.
Aches.

I am pissed off!

I don’t want to be sick!!

I am angry!
I want to be well!

Anger.
Anger again.
Always angry!

Always back to the anger.
Am I sick because I am angry?

I need to let this go!

So I can be WELL!

The Storm.

Getting fed up.

Been tolerating too much BS lately.

I am not a doormat!

I need to make a change.

A drastic change?

Maybe!

Change it up!

But how?

With a STORM!

But, a Storm causes damage.

And, requires a cleanup.

But, a Storm does create change.

Is it the change I want?

I don’t know.

But I do know after the clean up it is calm.

The calm after the Storm!

Is the cleanup worth the Storm?

Is the change worth the Storm?

I don’t know.

But I need some change.

And sometimes change only comes after a Storm.

So here we GO!

It is time to cause a STORM!

Brewing.

 

Brewing.
Stewing.
Steeping.

Waiting.
Alone.
Waiting.
Isolated.

In my head.

Thoughts.

Thoughts in my head.

Thinking.
Thinking.
Thinking.

Too much thinking.

Too many thoughts.

Yeah, that’s the problem.
Too much thinking.
And too many thoughts!

Been doing too much thinking.

Maybe I should go talk to someone?

Bash my head against a wall.

 

Bashing my head against a wall.

Resentful.
Angry.
Pissed off.

And now I am bashing my head against a wall.
Well, not literally.

Just encountering the same learning experiences.

Over and over.
Over and over.

Until I change.

Or until I learn the lesson.

Time to learn and change.

Otherwise this wall is going to concuss me.

 

Hurry up to wait.

Sitting around for weeks.

On a training trip.

But going slow.

Waiting and wanting to work.

Today is the day we get notice.

Text message from work colleague.

Or really, my overseas boss.

“Are you available?”

Bam!  There it is!

Here it goes!

Time to do work.

Been sitting around doing nothing for weeks.

Now it is time.

Careful what you wish for.

Because it might actually happen!